I miss my roller coaster life.
I miss being busy.
I miss doing things that dont give me any benefits.
I miss camps.
I miss going overseas even if it was only Malaysia.
I realised that 'O' level has stripped me of all my fun-ness, joy-ness and excite-ness.
I used to be happy going for trainings, camps and overseas and always being proud of what i do.
Nowadays, there is NOTHING i can do except to revise, re-revise and the list of academic stuffs continues.
I was a leader, i was a councillor, i was a camper, i was a camp leader, i was everything that i have always wanted. Now for the next half of 2010 i will have to drop everything and sell my soul to studying. It sucks. Despite that, im not on task. My discipline is going from bad to worst. I cant even achieve my daily goals. I tell myself to study but in the end, i end up watching tv not for the hour but for the WHOLE day.
I want 'O' level to get out of my life. Its giving me a monotonous life. I want to explore, i want to try new things, but i cant because im sitting for my 'O' level very soon. Its a lame excuse. I want to work, nope i cant. I want to go camps, nope i cant. Everyone will discourage me to do so accompanied with the advice, its important that you study now. Oh geeeshh
Stop telling me that i cant do this or that because of 'O's.
I want to be free!!
I guess this is what happens when boredom strikes you at the head.
You bet i have a list of things to do when im done with 'O' level !
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