I believe there is a reason to why i am holding back my feelings.
Am i really holding back my feelings?
Being near you, makes me want to go wild and drop all my practical, rational thinking.
But those 3 words you want me to say, i find it difficult to say them.
Want you near me, but cant have you near me.
Call it crap and bullshit. It doesnt makes sense to me either, but its a caution im taking.
Afraid to let loose, fearing that if i do, i will get burnt again.
You said you've changed, i could see that. But everything still remains the same. Same how? Same why? All those questions i have no answers to.
Call focusing on studies an excuse, perhaps you are right, but study IS my Responsibility. My parents sent me to school to study not to get distracted by something im not even sure of.
Yes, that is how much i think of Love. It stood low before me. Sizable to a peanut. Truthfully, i think love at this age is something not to be taken seriously, its like a fairytale, its perfect, but you are just anticipating the end of the relationship. We all know, somethings have to end and it will end. Some things just dont last, forever, as we expected it to.
That is a fact, i will acknowledge.
Nowadays i have this thoughts, everytime i hear those kiddos in relationship and stuffs and i give a what the heck expression, and thinking "Like it would last??". Mean huh??
Then the boy will tell the girl, "You are the only girl that i will ever love..."
Then the girl will tell the boy, "Hold me in your arms for forever..."
And i go "heard that many times before, what happened with you and your ex??" Phiiishh...
They replied easily "Ouh, the love died, my feelings for him/her faded"
I say "Bloody bastard!!"
JOKE-OF-THE-DAY:
I read his blog, and he typed he MADE HISTORY!!!
I laughed out loud!!!!
His history was, talking to a girl late till the next morning and sleeping at 8am for his first time. Ahahhahah. P.A.T.H.E.T.I.C & D.U.M.B
Why am i so mean and cruel nowadays??
Nevertheless, you, i still remember the times when you helped me with that Wadi thingy. Thanks a lot. I dont hate you. At least i dont hate you for what you did. Just freaking annoyed, irritated and frustrated. Im feeling, anxious and furious.
Am i really holding back my feelings?
Being near you, makes me want to go wild and drop all my practical, rational thinking.
But those 3 words you want me to say, i find it difficult to say them.
Want you near me, but cant have you near me.
Call it crap and bullshit. It doesnt makes sense to me either, but its a caution im taking.
Afraid to let loose, fearing that if i do, i will get burnt again.
You said you've changed, i could see that. But everything still remains the same. Same how? Same why? All those questions i have no answers to.
Call focusing on studies an excuse, perhaps you are right, but study IS my Responsibility. My parents sent me to school to study not to get distracted by something im not even sure of.
Yes, that is how much i think of Love. It stood low before me. Sizable to a peanut. Truthfully, i think love at this age is something not to be taken seriously, its like a fairytale, its perfect, but you are just anticipating the end of the relationship. We all know, somethings have to end and it will end. Some things just dont last, forever, as we expected it to.
That is a fact, i will acknowledge.
Nowadays i have this thoughts, everytime i hear those kiddos in relationship and stuffs and i give a what the heck expression, and thinking "Like it would last??". Mean huh??
Then the boy will tell the girl, "You are the only girl that i will ever love..."
Then the girl will tell the boy, "Hold me in your arms for forever..."
And i go "heard that many times before, what happened with you and your ex??" Phiiishh...
They replied easily "Ouh, the love died, my feelings for him/her faded"
I say "Bloody bastard!!"
JOKE-OF-THE-DAY:
I read his blog, and he typed he MADE HISTORY!!!
I laughed out loud!!!!
His history was, talking to a girl late till the next morning and sleeping at 8am for his first time. Ahahhahah. P.A.T.H.E.T.I.C & D.U.M.B
Why am i so mean and cruel nowadays??
Nevertheless, you, i still remember the times when you helped me with that Wadi thingy. Thanks a lot. I dont hate you. At least i dont hate you for what you did. Just freaking annoyed, irritated and frustrated. Im feeling, anxious and furious.
~**~
I read her blog, she is betting on someone else's relationship to continue to believe that love exists. It reminded me, i did that. And i betted on her relationship, after that Wadi thingy, and it ended. So a little advice to her. Its a bad idea to believe in love because of somebody's relationship. Dudette, i love you so much. I know no matter what you will face this head on. Anyway, be EXCITED for school!!! Because someone is about to discover, how such a great person you are, wanting to be the one to cherish you so dearly, so close to his heart. Like one of a kind diamond. One that will radiate in his heart. Cos, one that lets go of you is one that is at lost. We should go on an ice-cream date after my Mid Year ya!!
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